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I haven’t been on buddy slim for months.  I’ve felt like a piece of poop because I had started a weighloss group and just stopped checking in.  The members of the group are awesome and kept going (thanks Bette Jo) and are still going strong (go girls).

I thinks it’s nuts that I didn’t even realize how long it’s been since I checked in.  I was thinking a few weeks maybe a month but it’s been more than two! 

Life is nuts, I don’t stop ever, even as I’m writing this I’m scanning documents for work!  I’m sure most people’s lives are just as busy as mine, I guess I just don’t know how to manage my time effectively.  Any suggestions?? Anyone??  Help!!!

I really need like 5 more hours in the day, then I might be able to keep up.  A second husband could also help, I figure two men might be able to do the work of one woman! :)  

One of the bigger things that have happened for me recently is my trades test.  I’m a naval weapons technician (civilian) and I’m still an apprentice.  I wrote the first part of my testing to graduate to journeyman level today and passed with an 84%.  I’m so happy about it and it’s a huge stress relief.  Now I just have to worry about the practical part!

I’m back on buddyslim and am I need to beat this weight issue.  I’m scared of diabetes and heart disease and all that other wonderful stuff.  I just turned 30 the other day and I really didn’t expect I’d still be dealing with this weight issue in my 30’s.   I really need to find that motivation again, I’m hoping my buddyslim friends are still willing to help!

I’d like to start a new challenge.  I’m going to make 2 teams with 8-10 members with a good amount of weight to lose.  We’ll decide as a group if we want to go for 500 or 250 pounds.  There are no rules aside from a weekly weigh in and the group that reaches 250 or 500 first is the winner.  If anyone is interested let me know!

I am going to go insane from lack of sleep.  It’s 5am and I’ve been up with the baby since 3am and I only went to bed at 1:30am.  My house is a mess and I’m not looking forward to starting my day with no sleep again.  He will not go to sleep unless he is picking at my face, my ears or pulling my hair.  He has sharp little raptor claws and my face is cut and scratched.  He pinches and claws and pulls and it drives me nuts.  I try to hold his hand and I give him blankies, toys etc to pick at but it’s not good enough he must pick at me.  Do you have any idea what it’s like to be exausted and have a little imp clawing and pinching you.  He needs his sleep and I try everything to get him to go to sleep but nothing works except letting him attack me.  He’s to little to understand no I try to redirect his attacks but it doesn’t work.  If I move his hand away he cries and wakes up.  I’m going to go nuts it is driving me CRAZY!!!!  Tonight is going to have to be the night I let him cry it out in his crib.  I hate to do it but I’m going to be half asleep one night and holler at him because he’s hurting me.  I want pepsi, I’m so freaking irriatated I want a giant glass of cold pepsi or anything sugary.  Good thing there is nothing in the house like that. If God didn’t make babies cute I think we’d give them away.  I think I’ll be happy to get back to work and get away from this house and mess and useless husband but it really just means longer days and more work for me.  Oh did I mention my husband is USELESS.  I’ve never met anyone so messy and slobbish in my entire life.  He doesn’t pick up after himself ever.  I clean something he goes behind me and messes it up, he’s worse than a friggin child.  I talk to him about it and explain that he’s doubling my workload by leaving his clothes laying around and tracking mud through the house because he doesn’t like taking his shoes off in the house.  I have to mop almost everyday to keep the floors clean!!!  I’ve even gone on “strike”, which doesn’t matter it just gets messier and messier until it’s impossible to live in and then I spend a week trying to get the house back in order.  I think I hate everyone today.  My baby is crying AGAIN so now I have to go get clawed and have my hair pulled out etc.  I need a freaking vacation away from them all.  End Rant

I’d just like to say thanks to my husband (even though he’ll never see this).  I’ve been handing the baby off all week and he hasn’t complained too much.  There was a little resistance at first until I simply said “suck it up, buttercup”.  Now he’s learned his lesson and doesn’t complain too much.  I need time for myself and I don’t take it at all.  Seriously I go days without brushing my hair and showering because I spend all day doing everything for the kids and him.  And that is not only disgusting it’s just wrong.  Sitting around and waiting for them to recognize that I do everything and don’t ever have a break, will never bring change as they don’t notice.  So I force the issue know and I feel much better because of it!  Plus I’m going back to work soon and I can’t do it all being home by myself, much less when I work!  Here’s to stay at home mom’s who have clean houses, can find time to exercise everyday and can get dressed and put makeup on everyday.  I have no idea how you do it but  YOU GO GIRL.

I messed up my bcp this week so Aunt Flo came sooner than expected!  But my lovely superhuman bloating and water retention has reared it ugly head.  Still managed to lose 2 lbs and I’m down 6.5″ overall.  Not too shabby!  Hopefully I won’t get eliminated from survivor weight loss.  I know I can continue on my own but it’s been so motivating that I hope to continue in it for awhile.  I’d just like to say that Michelle had a kick ass idea and is a great motivater and her clients are lucky people!!!  My team is awesome everyone is supportive and dedicated.  Go Survivor Sistas!!!!!!!!!

So yesterday was thanksgiving and I cooked up a mean turkey!  I don’t spare butter, salt etc. when cooking thanksgiving dinner since it is only once a year.  I didn’t go back for seconds and I haven’t touched the leftovers ( although I will probably throw some turkey breast in my salad at lunch)  But just to be on the safe side I’m reducing my calorie intake to a max. of 1300 until Saturday!  And I’m going to do a few extra workouts.  This weight loss survivor is very motivating.  As most of us who are moms know it’s easier to do things for others than for yourself.  Everyone on the team is depending on one another to lose weigh/inches/workout to earn points for the team.  So I guess this works especially for people like me who put themselves last, I’m actually putting myself and my health first by helping others.  Perfect setup!!!

LOL I suppose I should read before I do things I’ve been aiming for -250 calories/day.  I thought that would be enough for 2-3 lbs weight loss a week then I clicked on the what’s this link and it’s about 1/2lbs/ week.  I think I’ll just try to stay between 1200-1800 calories/ day.  Plus the extra exercise this week I should have a decent loss.

The little guy has been sleeping better the past few nights so I feel a whole lot better.  The difference between being tired and rested is amazing.  I don’t know how I partied all night and could get up for work and school before I had kids!   Charging my ipod for a walk,  yeah!!  Now if I can get out of the house without any children following me that would be great, I could really just use some me time.

Well I did it to myself again on about 3 hrs of interuppted sleep I cleaned my house (ok exercise) and didn’t eat until about 3:00.   Went to pick my little girl up from school and her friend for  a sleepover was totally starved and hit the drivethru.   I ate not only one cheesburger but two!  Since I didn’t really eat anything else I think I’ll be OK but a 40 min. run/walk is definately on the agenda this evening.

I’m so excited to start getting this weight off.  This week I just feel like crap.  I’ve really been trying to watch my eating and move more.  I notice things about my eating like I eat when I’m tired and bored and stressed.  I’m glad I’ve recognized that but I’ve still been doing it for the last few days.   I have been really tired the past few days my dear sweet baby boy will not sleep!!! My house is a mess,  i’m exausted.  My husband is super busy with school right now so I hate to ask him to do anything.  I’m just worn out I  don’t feel like exercising I want to SLEEP!!!!  I’m just complaining, hoping writing it down might make me feel better,  I already feel guilty because I haven’t been exercising the last two days which is when the group was supposed to start.  Go Sandra!